Thursday, November 18, 2010

A Welcome Gift From Grandmother Spider

I have been a Pagan for only four short years, and every once in awhile the Goddess sends me a confirmation message that I am where I truly belong.

This is a picture of a light fixture in the kitchen of our RV. We were living in it at the time, (a part of my horse racing/gypsy days). The light fixture was no longer in use as we had rewired the trailer a few of years before, so I guess Grandmother Spider thought it would be a nice place to build her new home and present me with her personal gift of welcome.

Grandmother Spiders Welcome Gift  

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


This is Sammie. My new moving disaster.

She has already broken two of my ornamental jars, one that held my grand daughters feather collection and one with my bath powder in it, the tablecloth has been found on the floor more times than I can count and my alter candles have been knocked over on a regular basis. And all this in just 4 days. *sigh* She is not the brightest kitty I have ever owned either so teaching her the ropes is not going to be easy. On the other hand she is just so cute and cuddly that I can't help but love her.

My older kitten Kali is not as fond of her as I am though, and I have had to break up a few fights.

But maybe the war has ended or at least slowed down, because this morning I caught Kali giving her a good washing. Sammie now has one of the cleanest ears on the planet.
And come nap time, it's nicer to have a bed partner than to sleep alone.

Getting acquainted with and learning about a new animal is not always easy, but I have found that patience and staying constant in my discipline eventually pays off. I can tell Sammie is going to try my patience for some time to come, but we'll work it out and soon will be the best of friends.

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Monday, November 15, 2010

Gods...To Be or Not To Be

What is the definition of a God or Goddess?
Are They just words to explain what we don't understand, or are They real beings, unseen, but felt?  Are They here to assist us with our lives, or are They only something we wish for when we are in need?

A heady question... what is God or Goddess, and one that is very difficult to answer.
There are as many answers as there are people on Earth and They have as many names as there have been civilizations in humankind's history. Each of us has our own idea about who and what They are. Even when we think we are agreeing on how we view Them, that view is still unique only to us. As individuals it is impossible for everyone to hold an identical image of the Gods. Each of us see's/ feels Them in our own way. I believe They are who we want or need Them to be at the time we call upon Them...and even that image changes with each circumstance.

My patron Goddess is Artemis. She has been with me my entire life, even before I understood exactly what my beliefs were. I can look back over the various chapters of my life and see where She stepped in to protect and guide me. At those times I didn't even know who Artemis was, or that She even existed. She helped me through a difficult childhood, then a difficult marriage. She was with me through six pregnancies, helping the births of my children go smooth and easy. She was not there to necessarily take away my pain, but to help me find the courage and strength to survive it. Even when I prayed to my God at the time to just let me die because I felt I couldn't endure one more day of unhappiness, there was always that small niggling poke from somewhere inside me that told me I could get through this crisis and come out the other side a stronger and better person for the experience.

I don't believe our Gods can wave a magic wand and make all the bad go away, but I do believe They are always with us, encouraging us and showing us the way to overcome the terrible hand life has once again dealt us.
As far as worshiping our Gods, I feel that just believing in Them is all the worship they require. Saying the occasional thank you, and living our lives in a way that honors Them is enough.

Although I am now well into my Crone years and Artemis is known as the protector of the young and innocent and the bringer of painless child birth, I feel She is still with me. She is the Goddess who held my hand as I entered this life, and after spending so many years together, She has granted me the gift of once again holding it when my time comes to leave. She is not a Goddess apart from me, but the Goddess that is a part of me, and I am grateful for Her presence and guidance all these years.

So back to the question “What is God/Goddess” ? They are who and what 'you' want Them to be. They are called by the name 'you' call Them. They are 'you' in your most Divine form.

Friday, November 5, 2010

An Apology

This blog is going to be in the form of an apology.  I know the last several months most of my posts have been copy and paste type things and I'm sorry for this. I know a blog is supposed to be original and a way to share your feelings, thoughts and ideas with others, but my health has been a real pain the the butt the last several months and the ability to concentrate long enough to put my thoughts down in a way that makes any sense at all has been impossible.
At this point things are improving and hopefully before too long I will be back to full steam ahead.  I send my thanks to those of you who have stuck it out, please bare with me just a little longer and I'll try and make up for lost time.
Blessings to all